Unrelenting Standards

What the heck are Unrelenting Standards? That is a great question, and today I am asking myself the same thing. I found out a couple days ago that these are what I operate from day to day... basically in everything I do, don't do, think, feel, I mean they run deep.
So here is a picture of what they look like in my life... yours may look different, if you have them at all?.
Mine are like the high jump. You know in the olympics. That really high bar that is set up and the olympian runs a lil ways and then vaults off of a way too skinny pole that bends almost to the point of snapping, but just at the last minute catapults them over the bar, or into it, if it's too high.
I have this high jump bar that I set up for myself, pretty much in all areas of life. I run every day, more than once a day usually, and every single time either my skinny poles snaps, or I just don't make it over. I cannot make it over the bar of my standards for myself, no matter how hard I try. That skinny vaulting pole either snaps and smacks me in the face, or I crash head first into the bar, not even coming close to getting over it!
And so I keep trying and I keep trying and I frustrate myself and get mad and try harder and harder and harder... never making it of course! Then I get furious and just walk away from the bar all together, but not for long. I always end up coming back.
This week I am searching to figure out where I got the idea to set that stupid bar up for me to jump over?! Who gave me the idea that I have standards I have to meet? At first I tried to say they are God's standards, but I was quickly told, that God doesn't hold me to the high standards that I try to live by...
It's just something to think about! :)
I'm starting to think I might have to have a complete rewiring/reboot/demolition and start all over of my insides! yikes!