Lonely's Safe Curiosity

This picture has been in my mind for about a week and a half now. Since I started working with Mrs. B, we have been working on the different parts of me that keep me going through day to day life. Yes, this sounds like I have multiple personalities, and although I may be a good candidate for it.....there is only one Lindsey :) Praise the LORD!

So lately we have been working on Lonely. Just a brief background so the picture will actually make sense... Over the years I have experienced many hurts in my life, a few too many if you ask me, but I am slowly coming to realize that sufferings are a very important part of the Christian walk, unfortunately. 

Since I am just now coming to realize this, in the past I have not dealt with hurt, trials and sufferings in a good way. In fact I think I can safely say I have blocked most of them out and not dealt with them at all. Therefore, I have a "safe room" in my heart where I stay and where I protect myself and no one else is let in. There is only one person who has been allowed to come in that "safe room" with me, and no, sadly, it's not the Lord. Though I have hopes that one day, one day, hopefully, one day I will let Him in.

So Lonely is the only one in this "Safe room" that wants out and is willing to take the necessary steps to get out. All the others are fearful, untrusting, hurt, wounded, hardened, protective, and satisfied with staying in the safe room. 

The other day I worked hard on trying to get Lonely out of the room for a lil bit, and as you can see she didn't make it very far. But it was progress none the less. I have accepted that this is not going to be a quick result, like I love, but more a long process. 

So as you can see Lonely made it to the door, which is guarded by the way (that would have messed my picture up, haha!), and she peeked out under the door. The LORD himself sits on the steps outside the door, or so she thinks; He is casting the shadow coming through the bottom of the door. She is the only one that wants to open the door and run to Him, but is not able yet and is persuaded easily that He's not safe and cannot be trusted. One day hopefully, but for now she peeks under the door curiously, but remains safe. 

Oh the joys of painting! Gets it out instead of keeping it in :)

I'm so thankful for this gift I have been given!