Happiness

At this point in my life, everything, and I mean EVERYTHING seems to be pointing me past the goods things that God gives, or doesn't give, to simply just God. Sunday school started today on God is the Gospel, not the good things He gives, not the heaven we look forward to, free of sickness, sin and pain. It's Him, He'll be there, that's the hope of Heaven. Books that I've read, The Prodigal God, Shattered Dreams, When People Are Big and God Is Small. Events, situations, stuff that happens, basically life.... I'm telling you, EVERYTHING is directing me down this straight and narrow path lately. It's good, it's really good, but it's a hard path, and it's not one that this rebellious, stiff necked Israelite child walks down willingly or easily. 

Just to share, this is a song that I really like right now that also points past happiness in this life to Something much bigger, Someone much more... is He enough for me, just Him alone, or do I only want to settle for the things/2ndary pleasures/happinesses that He can give me? But what happens when the temporary happiness that I want so much is withheld? Then what? What is it that I really want/need?... to be happy right now, to feel good now, to be able to wear a smile immediately, or to be able to see past this happiness, this life, even these sorrows, and see Him...see that no matter what I am, what I have, what I don't have.... in all these things...He is worth it all?!?! This is a lot harder question than it seems.... or maybe it's just me and my stubborn rebellious self.... Anyways... yeh... the song...haha!

Happiness was just outside my window

I thought it'd crash bowing 80 miles an hour

But happiness is a little more like knocking

On your door, you just let it in. 

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow

Let it be, you can't make it come or go

But you are gone, not for good but for now

And gone for now feels a lot like gone for good. 

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard

Happiness was never meant to hold

Careful child, light the fuse and get away

Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks. 

Happiness damn near destroys you

Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor

So you tell yourself that's enough for now

But Happiness has a violent roar. 

Happiness it's like the old man told me

Look for it and you'll never find it all

But let it go, live your life and leave it

Then one day you'll wake up and 

He'll be home. 

- The Fray