He is...Everlasting

The past two days I can best describe as overwhelming, end of my rope days. That doesn't seem to do 'em justice, but it'll have to do for now. I have barely made it through eight hour days at work, as I'm exhausted from emotionalness, running myself ragged, lack of good rest and giving too much of myself. Therefore, I have ceased everything for the time being. I've come to work, pushed through, been productive and then limped home to sit in the sun in my back yard.
I carried my chair out near my Josephs Coat rose bush that is busting with blooms and plopped, sat, slouched and did nothing but tilt my head up and soak up some sun.
You can only guess the realization that hit me while sitting in the sun...duh Lindsey, I can only do and give sooo much...
I thought I knew this already and was living it out, but obviously I have been sucking it up in this area. Obviously I have given a lil too much, done a lil too much, not rested near enough and not taken care of me at all...because I completely lost it Tuesday. Everything seemed to be swirling around me like enveloping torrents of wind from a tornado, or maybe a black hole. Everything that I fear, care about, deeply desire, every struggle, heart ache and pain seemed to surface at once and I just knew for sure that I was going under!... Sooo, I've heeded good advice and parked my arse under the sun for the past couple days and done absolutely nothing besides soak in some Vitamin D and rest. As I was sitting doing nothing, of course my mind was still going, going, going, swirling, swirling, swirling... etc. etc. etc. ha! you get the idea...
But as I sat there with my face turned to the sun I was reminded of a simple, basic, essential Truth... that my stubborn @$$ forgets so often and easily.
God... Creator, Sustainer, Savior, Father, Refuge, Redeemer, LORD... IS!
I know... simple, right?!
It's just so easy for me to forget. In the midst of life I take my gaze off the God that keeps me alive... I get busy. I have photo shoots. I have picture editing. I have a full-time job. I have friends hurting. I have heart aches of my own. I have life sweeping before my eyes. I need to pay bills. I still haven't done my budget. I have a niece and two nephews that I don't spend enough time with. I have things I want to do. There are ways I want to serve. I have paintings sitting in my room, blank canvases, waiting to be filled. I have debt I want to pay off. Conversations to be had. Wedding shoots coming up. Spiritual warfare to fight. Parties to be planned. I have issues to resolve. I have friends I want to show I love. I want to exercise everyday. I want to kill sin in me. I want to be a living light. I need more hours in a day. Relationships I want to invest in. Gifts I want to use. Dreams I want to come true. Oh... did I pray today. I haven't read my Bible in days... swirl, swirl swirl... makes your head spin too huh?!
In the midst of all that doing I forget to be still and know that He is God.... not me! As I sat under the sun, the warm falling all over me like a comforting blanket, it suddenly hit me... no matter what is swirling, God always is. No matter what deadline or pressure... He is. No matter what relationship I invest in... God is. No matter what heartache I struggle with... God is. No matter if I budget or not... He is. No matter if I am overwhelmed... He is. No matter if I can't do it all... God is!
Why does it take such drastic measures for me to realize I need Him. In this whirlwind of life... God is, God remains, He is the same yesterday, today and forever! No matter what may come in life... God is. He's the only Constant. He's the only Truth that remains. He's the only blessing that stays. He's it. He's all. He's everything!
Maybe I need to sit and gaze at the Son a lot more often!
Jesus, in my weakness, I believe, help my unbelief?!

Everlasting God... the song that fits what the LORD is as I rest in Him...