Light vs. Dark

It's amazing to me the drastic difference light makes, seen and unseen.... 
This week I have been house sitting for a family who is vacationing at the beach. I have always loved being at their house, it's warm, cozy, full of character, laughter and love. A lot of that has to do with the people that live in the house. I love them to pieces.
So this week I have noticed several obvious things! A house is a lot bigger when no one is there but me! And let's just say, I've never been a fan of big houses, much less a big house where I am the only one occupying it! AHHHHHH! It's just creepy! too much space and emptiness! ha!
I have also noticed it gets dark at night! bwahahaha, just cracked myself up! duh! lol... I have never liked the dark. I especially don't like the dark in a big house, where again, I am the only one occupying it.
Before the sun sets I am great, at ease, going outside, watering plants, taking the garbage out in the garage, doing laundry, etc. I can see everything around me. I know what's there in front of me. I am aware of everything before me and behind me for that matter.  Then... dah...dah...dah...dah...scary music...the sun sets. It gradually gets dimmer, and I can't see as well. Then it's pitch black and I can't see what's beyond the windows. I can't see in the backyard garden. I can see in the garage because, well, I keep the light on until I go to bed. Even going from room to room, I turn on lights... I can't see in the next room, I can't see in dark corners... where last week one of the kids jumped out and scared the bajeeeeeeeeezus out of me! Yeah, he got sucker punched! I warned him! hahaha!
At night I am more aware that I cannot see, my knowledge and visibility are limited and fear and uncertainty sets in. Once again, I have never liked the dark... maybe it's my extremely vivid imagination, or amplified fears, or awareness of who rules the night air. All of these things play into the simple fact that I just like sunshine and light! ha! Dark and night are for sleeping! :)
So for the past week I have kept doors closed to dark rooms, left hall lights on, bolstered my mind to just not worry about what is going on behind the wide open uncovered windows, out in the dark yard. I go upstairs, leave the bathroom light on and lay down with a pistol by the bed... ha!
This is the seen (visible, tangible) of light vs. dark!
As always there is more to the seen that just what you see. I know, sounds funny, but it's true. The unseen sometimes seems even more real than the seen, especially at night when you can't see. This is where my imagination and inability to see make a mess of my mind. This is also what drives me to realize some Truths in the midst of darkness and pushes me to think deeper.
1. God is light... praise His Name, hallelujah!!
2. God drives out darkness...wooohooo!
3. God is love.
4. Perfect love drives out fear! yehessssss
5. Satan is the prince of the night... booooo hisssssssss!
6. God never sleeps, doesn't need too.
7. God sees all...even what I cannot see in darkness
8. God is in control over all things, even the ol' lurky one!
9. Even the darkness cannot hide Him.
10. He protects.
11. He guides...His Word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.
So as I lay down at night on guard, because I can't see and uptight because my knowledge and visibility are limited... I am (I gotta be honest) slightly comforted that He is light and all of those things that I cannot be. I am so very thankful that He also knows me and has put the knowledge of Himself in my heart. So eventually I fall asleep reminding myself that He is awake and active and in me. Which also leads to the imagery in my head that as I walk through a dark house my heart and head glows like a 100 watt energy saver light bulb. ha! Told ya my imagination ran wild!
So with Him in me and me in Him we shine and He drives away darkness as I go. This also brings me to more imagery. This path I walk from day to day lately has seemed dark, filled with darkness actually. I don't know where He is leading. I don't know what He's up to. I don't know why He is doing what He's doing. I don't know what His good is. I don't know what or who is right around the next corner ready to pounce. I don't know what obstacles are coming. As a sinful human, my knowledge and visibility are limited. I often feel like I'm wandering around in a dark room with my arms out in front of me trying to feel my way through to find something familiar or locate the right direction I'm supposed to be going, or seeking for something that is comforting in the darkness. I am realizing He doesn't always shine His light way ahead. He doesn't light the path days, months or even years down the road. He gives me just enough light to illuminate where my feet are going to touch ground right now, in this step. Only this step is visible.
Recently I came across a new favorite verse. My verse of the year actually, and in that verse I am loving this section... "and your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, "this is the way, walk in it," when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left..."
It comforts me with all this visible and invisible surrounding darkness that He is in me, around me, behind me, working through me and walking with me. So as I feel like I am wandering in the darkness... He is light and He is leading me. Praise God He lives in me and is active, at work, purging darkness and filling me with His light, one step at a time.
I believe, even in the midst of darkness... help my unbelief?!